i need to stop holding my feelings in cause days like this when i break down are not fun at all... i just feel like i have no one to really talk to. i feel as if everyone would just judge me and think how i feel is stupid....

maybe im not as strong as i give myself credit for.... i try so hard to stay strong and not let things bother me, but maybe thats making me weaker...

i just want to runaway.... but now i have my baby boy and i want the best for him. how do i know everythings going to be okay? how will i know what IS best for him??

im tired of struggling... why must i have this need to be so damn independent??? i just want to be a child again and have everything given to me... but thats never gonna happen....
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<<->>
2011-07-06 @ 8:59 p.m.

and where the fuck does that put me???? anyone gonna tell me?????

i think i need something new in my life.....

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<<fml>>
2011-06-22 @ 5:30 a.m.

i feel so unattractive...........

i cant believe this is happening.......

wtf do i do now?????................

crying only helps a little bit..........

i hate this.............

i need to get away now............

FUCK MY LIFE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ARRRRRRRRRRRGGGGHHHH!!!!!!!!
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<<->>
2011-06-19 @ 1:21 a.m.

im allowed to have feelings... right???
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<<hormonal>>
2011-04-15 @ 12:28 p.m.

wow... my pregnancy hormones really messed with my emotions over the past month or 2. lol

oh well... i feel a zillion times better about EVERYTHING!!!!!
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<<words>>
2011-03-28 @ 9:23 p.m.

ACTIONS speak louder than WORDS.

All I hear are WORDS.
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<<falling>>
2011-03-28 @ 9:03 p.m.

Love is like HEAVEN, but it can hurt like HELL.

It is said that it's hard to fall out of love... I'm finding it pretty damn easy.

...and it ALL SUCKS!!!!
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<<...>>
2011-03-28 @ 6:44 p.m.

It's like a long distance relationship... but worse.
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<<wake up!>>
2011-03-23 @ 5:05 p.m.

i wish this was only a dream... so that i can wake up and everything will be back to normal.

i just wanna smile again....
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<<916>>
2011-03-21 @ 8:23 p.m.

With every passing day... Sacramento looks better and better.

I know its the easier path... but I think its time for things to get easier for me. I am getting tired of being STRONG and TOUGH for the world.
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<<->>
2011-03-21 @ 12:37 p.m.

Reading makes me cry......
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<<OCD, please go away!>>
2011-03-21 @ 11:01 a.m.

My OCD has sky rocketed in the past few days!

I hate this feeling!! No matter how much I try to stop the compulsions, they just come back seconds after I tell myself to stop!!!!! Its muffling my brain!!

I think I need professional help.
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<<priorities>>
2011-03-20 @ 6:43 p.m.

Sometimes... your priorities need to change.
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<<loooooooooonely>>
2011-03-20 @ 5:57 p.m.

sooooooooooooooooooooo LONELY

What the fuck is happening to me??!?!?!?!?!?!?!?
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<<=(>>
2011-03-13 @ 11:47 p.m.

I am not happy... but I'm pretty damn good at pretending I am.

But I am also getting tired of pretending...
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<<I will be fucking amazing!!!!>>
2011-03-13 @ 11:13 p.m.

Call me selfish... but a girl can use some good attention every now and then! I am not used to floating around in the background and being noticed when its convenient. I was born for the spotlight! Fortunately, I have learned to be patient....... but sometimes feeling important is... well... IMPORTANT to me!

I don't expect a lot from others... but I've got needs, too... DOES ANYONE EVEN CARE ABOUT THAT???? The wrong people do and the right people seem to not.... and that SUCKS!

I CANT FUCKING DO THIS ALONE!!!!! But if I have to... i will make it happen! and i will be fuckin AMAZING!!!!!
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<<loooooooonely>>
2011-03-13 @ 11:04 p.m.

Feeling lonely......

... and it SUCKS

.......ALOT!

I have a feeling that I'm gonna feel this way for the rest of my life....

ARGghHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!
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<<im a survivor!!>>
2011-03-02 @ 10:43 a.m.

its unfortunate but true....

but in the end, all you really have is yourself!

so take care of your own needs first because who else can u really truly rely on to take care of you??

you may think its being selfish, but really... its being practical..

its called SURVIVAL!
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<<kill me>>
2011-02-28 @ 8:41 p.m.

This has GOT to be punishment for something I've done in the past because NO ONE should EVER feel this HORRIBLE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Oh Lord Jesus, please help me!
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<<fml>>
2011-02-21 @ 1:20 a.m.

I've always been so damn independent... so much that it drives me crazy when I start depending on others. But sometimes... I can't help but cry my head off because of this fucking stupid feeling of loneliness and helplessness...!!!!!!!!!!!!!

FUCK MY LIFE!!!

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<<->>
2011-02-12 @ 7:08 p.m.

When did I become so damn dependent???

This REALLY needs to change.....

and it just did....
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<<->>
2011-02-12 @ 7:07 p.m.

I'm beginning to think that I am the biggest mistake you've ever made.
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<<->>
2011-02-08 @ 7:58 p.m.

i just need to know that everything will be ok....

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<<->>
2011-02-08 @ 5:50 p.m.

It's gonna be tough, but I know I can do it. Lord Jesus, HELP ME
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